Anyone Recognize This?
By Tsukikage Anei | March 3, 2010
Okay, I was hoping someone might be able to tell me what this symbol might be. I had some sort of flash back, strongest I have ever felt, and during the course of which I spotted this symbol on a computer screen. I tried painting it quickly in Photoshop and basically painted it exactly how I saw it. Well, as close as I could anyway… the squiggly lines and bright streaks are digital interference, I believe. The symbol itself I think is meant to be smoother, but even then I am not entirely sure. If anyone has any thoughts or perhaps recognizes it, please let me know… it’s really eating away at me right now, and I am not sure why.
Also, I have written up a rather lengthy post that I am not yet sharing about the flash back I had. If anyone would like to read it, let me know. I haven’t posted it yet because it feels painfully private. :\
In any case, here is the image:
Thanks. :)
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Paranormal Encounter - 01.21.2010
By Tsukikage Anei | January 22, 2010
Okay, this was an encounter that happened early in the morning on the 21st of January. I had written this down elsewhere to keep a log, so now I am going to make an official post of it. I feel this was a seriously legitimate encounter.
So that night of Wednesday to Thursday this past week I didn’t bother going to bed until about 2am. Hurray for not having a job right now, right? xD In any case, I finally decided to go to bed, turned on my sound machine, and crashed for the night. Within ten minutes the first things started to happen. The sound machine, which usually makes a raining noise for me (I love rain, sue me) to sleep better, started to exert painfully loud static and beeping noises often categorized with electronic interference. It scared the living hell out of me and I promptly got up to check the machine. My first thought was that perhaps my iPhone, which has been known to cause interference in my car’s radio, was still on and causing the sound machine to do this. So I turned it off and went back to bed. Less than a couple minutes later, however, the sounds returned in the sound machine and with them came a sense that I was not alone.
I am sure most people know of this sense… it is our instinctive feeling that we are somehow in danger or that we are being watched. Well, I had that feeling quite intensely at that time. I didn’t think to let the situation pan out so I simply went to the machine and turned it off, not wanting to deal with the noise. When I touched the machine, though, the sensation that I was no longer alone hit me like a ton of bricks and of all things my skin began to crawl and feel oddly itchy, as if something passed right through me just then.
Not being able to explain what had happened I simply went back to bed. Unfortunately I had a hard time falling back asleep because frankly… I have a hard time falling asleep when I feel as though I am being watched. Needless to say I got very little sleep that night, but by morning the feeling was gone. Just last night, between Thursday and Friday, I also had my sound machine back on and not once has it flickered with interference.
So there yeh have it. I personally feel I had a strange paranormal encounter. I don’t know if whatever it was was intending harm or just curious, but I definitely felt something that night, whatever it was. The static and interference in my sound machine to the feeling of being watched, to more importantly the itchy sensation all tells me I had a significant encounter that night.
I hope to investigate this stuff further when I get a job and can buy some real equipment for such things.
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Blog for Musings
By Tsukikage Anei | January 12, 2010
Okay, I am going to go along with what Wraith suggested in a post that has since been deleted from here. If anyone has noticed by chance that my journal seems to have thinned down quite a bit…. well, you’d be right. xD I cleared out some of the more useless information and posts and left only the ones that delved into dream records and other types of records that I don’t mind keeping available on the web.
What I am going to do with this blog now is keep a record of any metaphysical, paranormal, or philosophical happenings or thoughts that I may have that I do not wish to become readily available except to those who know me well. IE: only my closer friends really know anything about this particular blog anyway. xD So, yeah, taking a page from the Wraith, I am going to use this journal for personal musings that I do not wish to post on my LiveJournal for what I think may be obvious reasons. :P
Just an FYI. ;)
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Dream 08.20.2009
By Tsukikage Anei | August 20, 2009
Well, last night I had a dream that was more of a nostalgic sort of dream than anything else. Although it was very strange. xD
I am not entirely certain of the setting… it was, from what I can grasp in what vague memories of the dream, taking place in a place similar to mountains, with a lot of rocky outcroppings and caves and stuff all around there. There was no snow and a little bit of grass here and there, so it couldn’t have been very high up in elevation. For some reason, too, everything’s colour was either so saturated or lackthereof that I am convinced it could not have been on Earth. If there were not dull blue-greys there were intense, bright greens. It also took place at night under what I believe was the full moon. At least, that is the feeling I got–I never actually saw the moon, but the light cast all around me was very similar in appearance to how the full moon casts light over everything on a clear night.
Anyway, so this dream dealt with myself and two friends whom I have not seen in a long time. I do not know the context of the situation we were in, but I was thrown into a situation where these two were already before I got there. Some sort of large creature was trampling around in these mountains and my friends were trying to fight it off or something. I am not entirely sure what they were trying to do, to be honest. This creature I believe was some sort of dragon, or at least had blood ties to one.
I am literally thrown into the situation–I remember being flung out of someplace high and barreling down to the ground, hitting it hard, and rolling to a stop, curled up in a ball because the impact hurt like hell. Conveniently enough, I landed and stopped behind a large rocky outcropping adjacent to where my two friends were already hiding. They both appeared to be holding weapons, but I could not really tell what kind. I looked at them in a puzzled manner, and they looked at me in the same regard. At first there was a kind of confusion or even slight annoyance drifitng between our gazes, but a second later an ear-splitting explosion brought our attention elsewhere.
I peered around the edge of the outcropping to see a massive, scaley dinosaur looking thing that had skin-like wings crawling on the ground. It was freaking huge and it had a pair of glowy red eyes, searching the area for something–no doubt it was my two friends next to me. I looked to them and they more or less indicated to me that they were trying to kill the bloody thing and needed some help doing so. So, I decided to play the bait and I took off running, screaming back at the dragon thing to come get me. Basically, I was taunting the, large, toothy, carniverous animal to come get me. Yeah, real smart. But, it worked, and the dragon spotted me, immediately taking off and soaring up into the air with wide-spread wings. The moment it did, though, it shot out a blast of… well, I want to say fire since that was my first impression, but it wasn’t really fire. It was certainly orange in colour, but it was not hot, per say, although it certainly had the power to destroy whatever it touched. In any case, it shot stuff at me from its mouth, but in that moment my friends attacked it with their weapons. I was too busy running, scared shitless, to figure out what kinds of weapons they were using, though.
This brought the dragon down to the ground in a heap, but it was not dead. We thought we had grounded it pretty good, so the three of us approached the thing. Unfortunately, it was playing us for fools and the moment we got close to it, the dragon slashed out and hit all of us with its tail at once, sending us all roiling away. I remember slamming into another similar outcropping and falling into a matt of intensely green grass. It was at this point that my friends showed up right beside me and dragged me to my feet. Apparently they were better prepared for this situation as the attack barely fazed them at all. But, they dragged me up and I found myself being hurried along, shoved quickly down a hill. The dragon had taken flight again and was firing bursts of energy everywhere, seemingly having lost sight of us. Small explosions erupted everywhere as the three of us scrambled to get the hell out of there.
Unfortunately that is about all I can remember from the dream. I woke up soon thereafter. o O;;
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Psychic Test
By Tsukikage Anei | August 11, 2009
lol… so I took a psychic test on the internets. Apparently I am good. xD But this is the results I got:
Here’s what I got off the website from my two highest scores:
You scored highest in Precognition.
While clairvoyance and telepathy have to do with perceiving events across distance precognition focuses on the ability to ’see’ events across time, specifically future events. Precognition is often for a lot of people totally unexpected and not asked for. It is the ability to see the future. It is usually experienced in a variety of ways among the most common are through feelings, brief inner glimpses, dreams and the third eye (the minds eye). For some, especially if not understood, this ability can be disconcerting until the gift is properly managed. This can be done through reading about, experiencing and understanding psychic ability.
Your next highest score was for Clairvoyance/Remote Viewing.
Clairvoyance is the ability to see images of an event or events that occurred in the past, present or future. This type of ’seeing’ does not occur with your physical sight it occurs with an inner sight. Sometimes these images will be a literal translation other times they are symbolic. It is necessary to develop this skill further in order to more accurately determine if an image is literal or symbolic. The ‘third eye’ (chakra at the centre of the forehead) is associated with being the seat of clairvoyance. When the third eye is developing and stretching to open up to clairvoyant skills it can give off a tight feeling in the centre of yo ur forehead, a desire to rub it or a constant irritation with your hair if it covers it.
Got it off of this website: http://www.psychiccourses.com/psychic-resources/psychic-test.php Check it out. :D
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Meditation - 03.03.2009
By Tsukikage Anei | March 4, 2009
Okay, so I decided to do some meditation last night before going to bed; almost out of the blue. I had told a friend I would look more into one of my past lives and see if I can find some more information about it. The life in question is the test tube/shape shifter one.
So, I did some meditation last night; not for long, just for like ten minutes or so, before heading to bed. Unfortunately, I did not get any truly helpful or concrete information, but I have no doubt that I got something. I managed to get myself into a meditative state fairly quickly, and when I tried to focus my mind on that particular life, I suddenly felt as if I was floating in something. It was dark, but I could see streams of white and red lights. Well, more like a few really small beams of light crossing my field of vision. I couldn’t see much more than that, but I felt panic and anxiousness. My eyes were darting around a lot; at first I thought I was just trying to get a sense of the scene, but then I realized I was mimicking what I was doing in the vision - my eyes were darting everywhere, trying to find something in a panic. But, I could not move much; I was floating in some kind of liquid, is my guess.
Anyway; I felt as if I wasn’t alone, but as I said, I could not pinpoint anything for sure. Unfortunately I wasn’t able to obtain much more than that - it only lasted a couple minutes. But it was intense regardless. o O;; I will do more in the future and see if I can’t expand on it any.
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Feelings of Stuff
By Tsukikage Anei | February 16, 2009
I was reading Wraith’s recent blog post and she mentioned a certain “swelling in the chest” feeling that happens when you feel something important about to happen or whatever. I have been having a similar experience the last several days, that I have, and while I can pin it down, I am not sure how to talk about it.
First though, I wanted to apologize for my spaced-out-ness lately and lack of activity the last several days. :\ Especially to Ara, who’s been looking forward to chatting with peoplez since last week. I really am sorry about that. I don’t really have an excuse to offer, so I won’t bother trying to make one. It’s just been an off week and a strange feeling last few days, nothing more. :\ Nothing to do with anyone here, really, so it’s no one’s fault but my own.
Now, one thing that I do need to get off my chest is the fact that I am finding myself in a lot of doubt lately, that I am. I am not sure how to destribe this, so I will just come out and say it: I am having serious doubts regarding what I thought I believe, realizing that I do not have a solidified belief system at all. Everything I am having a lot of questions and doubts about, from reincarnation and past lives, to metaphysics and stuff. I just… I don’t know what to think. For some reason or another, I feel like my beliefs are not really my own and for that I am in a daze. I need to do some searching and figure out what I truly believe, as opposed to what others believe and I want to follow. Which I find odd in itself, actually, because when I review everything I have written here, I still agree with it (my beliefs, who am I/what am I?, etc). But I feel that something is missing. Something very important that is only just out of reach. If I were to move forward just a little tiny bit, I will have it. But right now it is annoyingly out of reach. ><!! Gah…
In addition to that, I have been overcome with an emotion I swore I would never allow myself to feel again, and now I am not sure what to do. This feeling has lead to my distance from the world, as I try to sort out my own feelings and my options regarding them. I know it is vague, but that’s about all I can say right now. It is, of course, not an excuse. Just what is going on with me right now. :\
So between finding my beliefs in question and overwhelming emotions, I am seriously spaced out, that I am. @.@;; My apologies to everyone. I’ll try to have everything sorted out soon, that I will.
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Zaraki Kenpachi Spoke
By Tsukikage Anei | January 24, 2009
Heh… so yesterday I was in a half-sleep and half-trance like state between classes, waiting for the next one to begin (trying to get some rest, but not allowing myself to fall completely asleep). Anyway, while I was in that state I had someone I did not expect “visit” me and more or less yell at me for being stupid. He spoke in complete Japanese and I knew right off the bat who it was, even if he is a fictional character. He happens to be one of my favourite fictional characters ever, too. For some reason I understood exactly what he was saying, despite that he was speaking in Japanese: “You moron! So long as you can fight and fight well, none of that matters! Do what yeh want!”
I must say that for some reason having this happen and having him of all people/characters yell at me like this meant a hell of a lot to me. And I am truly holding what he said to heart, that I am. =^ ^= So, thank you Zaraki Kenpachi! xD
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Dream 01.21.2009
By Tsukikage Anei | January 21, 2009
So this time I was a photographer of sorts; like a nature photographer and a journalist. I was, as far as I know, something humanoid and male. Probably just a human male; maybe even just me as I am now. Not sure. I was following a pair of archaeologists around a dig site in the summer time, I think. They had discovered something in the higher reaches of a mountain or gully within a set of mountains. I am not sure what we were looking at but they were doing the whole brushing-away-of-materials thing and I stood back watching and taking pictures. It was rather entertaining, actually.
We were shocked by the discovery, but we did not know for sure what it was we were looking at. Even now I cannot picture the image clearly in my mind; all I see is a pale tan colour of sand as the archaeologists were digging and brushing away at it. Unfortunately we were apparently nearing the end of the term that was advisable in this climate. A massive storm was coming; a hurricane or some such thing. Apparently it was natural for the area we were in for massive storms to come in, fill the entire area with water, and leave months later, leaving the entire place as an ocean-like area with iceburgs and the like floating everywhere. Very strange. But we decided we would come back for more when the storm was over.
Then the dream switches over to that time and we were on what seemed to be a small floating isle of some kind in the middle of the massive valley of ice-cold oceanic water. It was the same place, just completely different than it was before. We had set up a command post of sorts on this island, which was at least a couple miles across. One morning I was having breakfast with some of the scientists when someone shouted out “oh my god!” We all turned to look at a person and see him staring wide-eyed out the series of massive windows (there were only a small handful of people in the large dining hall). We turn to look out the window… and what we see is an astounding sight. With the sun rising on the water, and all we can see into the horizon (this is apparently a very LARGE valley) are whales; or at least a series of massive fish the size of killer whales and larger. But not just a few… there had to be thousands of them… thousands upon thousands. And it seemed that they were converging on the island we were all on. It was surprise and awe at first, but soon thereafter it turned into fear for everyone there.
Some of the whales, looking very similar to whales here on Earth, but were still significantly different - thinner, with sharper teeth - were apparently attacking some of the workers near the shore. A few people were apparently killed, I heard, and the scientists and myself all rush around in a panic. Suddenly the whales start hammering away at the island; smashing themselves against it over and over. With so many doing it, the entire island felt to shake under the pressure. Running over a balcony that hung over the water, I looked below with my camera to take pictures. In doing so, one of the whales leapt from the water, mouth gaped with extremely large and sharp teeth aiming for my face. I pulled back in time to save myself, but needless to say I was scared shitless, then booked it to the more solid land mass. It continued for a while and out of nowhere I found myself falling into the water. I blacked out in that moment.
When I came to, though, I was lying on a grassy shoreline as the sun was setting beyond the mountains in the distance. I was in a completely different area than I was in the valley or research station. The water behind me was calm; almost lake-like. Sitting up, I looked back to the water, panting heavily. I grasped my camera and hoped the images I took would come out, when I saw a small whale splash off in the distance. Staring absently at it for a while, I finally stood and walked off towards the mountains. And then my dream ended.
How odd, neh? xD
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12.15.2008
By Tsukikage Anei | December 15, 2008
Okay, so I had another series of scenes play in my head last night. It was a kind of pseudo-dream because I was in that middle state between consciousness and sleep, so I can only imagine what that means. It was similar in ways to my last dream, though I was an anthropomorphic and humanoid type of creature, like the ones in my first book or that I draw often enough.
I believe it was space-oriented, but I am not entirely certain. At least the beginning was, and I was a part of an all-human crew once again, and being the only anthro on board, but one of three females. I believe it was a ship considering that the place felt seriously cramped as if it were a submarine, and everyone was working on repairs and stuff. It is possible and highly likely that we had just gotten out of a battle of some kind, and now were attempting repairs. I remember a point specifically where I was standing behind a human male that was doing something very strange, but it felt right. It looks like he was using a pump that had a cutter on the bottom. This pump and cutter that looked like a small guillotine couldnt have been much larger than a pipe you could wrap your hand around comfortably. It was also in a <> shape, though with more rounded sides. So a kind of eye-like shape, I guess. Some sort of white material in a long bar was being pressed down into the pump. It looked kind of like soap, actually. Had a similar texture to it, too. Anyway, the man was putting a long bar of it into the pump and letting it cycle through something, until it got to the bottom of the pump and started to come out. When it came out of the pump, it was dirty, with oranges and browns, and blacks within the soapy bar thingy. The guillotine thing on the bottom of the pump was then used to slice that section of the soapy stuff away, at which point I took the cut off piece and discarded it. No idea what it was for, but it looked like it was meant to clean something of the ship’s.
Anyway, to the more pressing part of the scenes, the entire crew was on edge, very similar to a time when I first joined the crew way back when. I felt slightly out of place, but I was very proud of who and what I was. A complete opposite feeling as my last dream, actually, because I felt it was an honour to be what and who I was. Nevertheless, the atmosphere of the ship was constraining. The Captain, I believe, or perhaps it was the XO, was having an affair with someone who was of the same species as me. She was beautiful and whatnot, but none of us were sure she could be trusted. Even I had reservations about her and wanted her gone. I am not sure what happened, but the entire crew came to a consensus that we should get rid of this woman by blowing her out of the airlock and into deep space. Whatever the reason, the crew was clearly afraid, and hateful of her. At the same time I could feel a growing animosity towards me, but I tried to ignore it.
I remember as the XO or Captain (not sure which it was) was leading her into his quarters, and it was undoubtedly when they were having sex. Apparently it was no secret, even though the crew did not talk about it. She had only been on the ship for a few days, I think, and the crew has been getting increasingly wary of her, convinced that she was up to something, and that whatever was going wrong was her fault. I remained aloof and tried not to get terribly involved in the situation because I did not want to be shunned as well. It was apparent at this point that there was also a massive racial hatred that humans generally had for my race. Not sure why, though. *shrug*
Anyway, the scene seemed to jump, and we were all standing in the cargo bay, and there was a large energy field protecting a gapping wall in the back of the ship, keeping the pressure inside the ship. The energy field was a bright blue to teal colour, but you could still see through it. It was disconcerting to say the least, and I found myself holding onto the wall tightly. The crew had assembled, with the Captain or XO tied up in rope, and them leading the other anthro woman out. I could not see her very well, but it was clear she was keeping a highly prideful face about her, despite that she knew she was about to be executed. The Captain/XO was being loud, trying to reason with the crew, but I stood by and did nothing. Something felt very wrong about this whole thing, but I did not do anything at the start.
The anthro woman was speaking to one of the crew members, who apparently had appointed himself the leader in this situation. She wasn’t trying to seduce him, but she was definitely being a bit too cavalier given her situation. The tensions were rising and time seemed to fly. All I remember next was me lunging after something and then the dream switched to a drastically different scene, even though I was the same person as before.
At this point I found myself in the back of a vehicle, and definitely planet-side, on a world with a lot of snow. I had been given away, it felt, to some older human male with graying hair and scars. There was an actual dog sitting in the seat next to him, and I was in the back seat of the car thing. I had said nothing the entire time, and it came to me by surprise that this man thought I was a normal dog, and that he had purchased a normal pet dog. Apparently he was blind and could not see me. He had pet me before and knew I had fur, and had a muzzle and basic face of a dog or wolf or whatever, but it seemed he was convinced I was a simple female dog.
For some reason I felt highly relieved with this, and for some reason I suddenly felt the weight of exhaustion take me, as I lay back and sighed heavily. The man spoke, but I do not know what exactly he said. I simply let out a low “woof” and a bark, and he chuckled. For some reason or other I felt highly content and relieved, as I said. The dog in the front seat looked back at me and I could not help but look at him and think to myself “how lucky he is.”
And then I woke up completely. And that was it as far as I know. More to come on this later, but I thought it aws intriguing. O o;;
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