Trust…
September 22, 2008 0
So, today was largely a good day! First lecture of the new semester, did some studying, took some books back to the library (yay! No late fees for me!) Tonight I’ll be watching Interview with the Vampire with my housemate (she hasn’t seen it yet). I always cry at that film (if you’ve seen it you’ll probably know why). So yes, I’m happy, life is good… Except the small issue of a trusted friend, and how much I can actually trust her.She left town in June, after finishing University, and returned to live with her parents.A few weeks ago, she returned to visit her old housemates, but at the time, I was at my parent’s house, so when she asked me if I wanted to go out with them, I couldn’t, although I told her that if she was still around on Tuesday I’d see her then.She told me she’d be going home on the Tuesday, but a few friends told me that they saw her in the club that night. Here’s the problem, after talking to her about it, she denies it, because she went home that day. This really makes me question the trust here. Someone is lying to me, and it’s not a nice feeling…Either my whole relationship with a friend I trusted so much and would tell anything to is worthless. It makes me question it. Was she faking it all? Did she never really like me? Has she been laughing behind my back the whole time? But why would she? We were really close. She was one of the only people who ever really got me, and ever actually cared!On the other hand, is it the others, jealous of my friendship with her? Are they trying to turn me against my other friends? But why would they even do that? They hardly know her!I feel so torn, and like I can’t trust anyone now. Somebody has lied to me, and there’s no way of knowing who because nobody has any reason to! None of this makes sense! Anyway, so that’s my little rant.